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Thursday, October 31, 2013

#11 Will I ever be free?

Now playing: You won't let me - Rachel Yamagata 

Status: Lost 

I wish that someone can guide me to the lights and bring me to where I belong cause that's the feeling I want to have. 

My eyes are shutting as I write this and tomorrow will be another brand new day. 
Sigh give me the energy I need. #strength

Goodnight everybody. 

Monday, October 28, 2013

#10 October can't be better

#10 October can't be better

Of course October is the best month of the year for me . First of all, I am born during this month on the 10th and it's written on the right side of my blog for those who don't know. On the other hand, I think so far this october has been the best compared to the other octobers of the past couple of years.


If i was to describe this october in 3 words, i would say "Memorable, Reflective, Happy". 
Over the past month, I was able to meet a bunch of amazing and great group of people through working for a 2-week Robinson event at Expo as a cashier and seriously it's my first time working as a part time cashier and i was really enjoying it mostly because of the company i was with. The experience at Expo was indeed a great and memorable one and everyday was a filled with anticipation and joy  and never once during that 2 weeks that i ever dread going to work. Basically, I LOVED IT and now i'm missing it..  Enough said, few days after the expo event was over, the clique met up again for a casual dinner at Vintage Deli Cafe at Bussorah St ( Arab St Area) and karaoke session at Teo Heng at Katong Shopping Centre. 
[PICTURES CAN BE SEEN IN MY PREVIOUS POST]

Dinner was delicious and I do recommend it to anyone who decide to have dinner after a walk around Haji Lane but one of the bad side about it is that they do not accept reservations and that means you have to be there to get a seat as there will always be a crowd. #personalexperience 


I've been reflecting a lot lately about my life and the biggest thought that keeps crossing my mind is what do i really want to be when i grow up and where am i to go after finishing my diploma. I knew i was never sure about it since graduating from secondary school with a shitty O level result.. all i wanted was to have a place in any polytechnic without considering which course it was (turned out to be my biggest regret). Let's make it clear, I hate school, I hate the course i am in ( Diploma in Mechatronics), I hate myself for not make a proper decision from the start and I hate myself for not studying harder for O Levels, but what's in the past will remain in the past.. and i am just going to try my best to survive till I graduate. 


Now, I know what i want to be and I can see myself doing it in the future. I did have thoughts on being an editor when i grow up, still am and I am going to direct my path to Mass communication in order to pursue my dreams. However, I really want to be part of the film industry, not an actor but as a film maker. I was part of two external film productions competition during secondary 3 organised by Panasonic and ESMA and that was the first time i've ever been exposed to film productions and of course i'm super into it and the process of it.. Indeed the process was long and tedious but the outcome makes everything worth while. I get inspired very easily by films and music, it's just something about it whenever I watch a film i just feel it, i feel the emotions, i see the dynamic transition from one scene to the other, the storyline, the choice of the set, the choice of the soundtrack to accompany the film, how the characters are dressed i.e. their clothes, their makeup. I just have this annoying habit since young of analysing more that what a normal person will after watching either a movie or even short films. But i never knew that i had so much for films till i met someone who had the same habit as me who is in the film industry and of course she has a very creative mind and they always say great minds think alike.... and we will be shooting a short film of our own to submit for SSFA(Singapore Short Film Festival) which i am absolutely STOKED about! All this reflecting had made me realised that i should've went to NAFA instead to do Diploma in Screen Media.. but i didn't knew about it back then... 

Another point i have to make is that I really like talking and interacting with creative-minded people #istalksomeofthemtoo because i think that they are so so  interesting and they are of course not so normal-minded ( does this word actually exists) like a typical normal human being 
the way they speak and the way they look at things in a different angle.. how i wish i was a student in the faculty of arts. I'm such a queer.


To wrap all this boring shit up, here are the footages of the recent Halloween Party me and Fahriyah organized. Let the pictures do the talking and thanks for reading!



           






























































Sunday, October 20, 2013