Over these couple months, many things have changed. People grew apart, people changed. I guess this is pretty normal for every human being. With the change of environment and the interaction with new people, gradually one will change. However, change can be good and change can be bad. I'm pretty glad that most people in my life changed for the good. They become much more vocal and more self-driven.
Having said that, these couple of months have been really eventful and interesting to me. Friends that I never knew that could be close became closer and friends that I thought was close grew further. But growing further doesn't imply that our friendship is over, it's just our priorities became different. Nevertheless, they are still significant to me.
I miss my best friend Rachel. Even though, we have not been meeting each other lately and all, I still regard her as my best friend. We may have our ups and downs, but that's why our friendship is as real as it gets. Through the years, we've seen each other through our good and bad times, we made bad and good decisions and last of all we made memories that we will never forget. This can sound cheesy and it can be easily misunderstood that I am declaring my love for her but honestly she is someone that I will never want to lose because of how much she has impacted me as much as I impacted hers.
( HURRY UP COME BACK)
On the other hand, I miss Jude. The last time I've ever met him was seriously ages ago till I can't even remember. He can be fucking annoying, sassy, bitchy etc, but he taught me a lot. He introduced me to mass communication and most of my ambitions were influenced by him. Having a friend like him was really a good thing. I become more opinionated and knowing how to defend myself in a conversation.
I seriously need to find time to meet him after countless of fail meetups. Kinda thankful that after all this years, this bitch hasn't change a bit maybe a little and that is he became super fearless.
Good friends come with a few. Best friends only come with one. I'm totally beyond grateful of the friends I'm surrounded with now as in I know these people will stick with me forever.
Maintaining a friendship with someone requires two hands to clap, if the other party didn't initiate any signal, try to be the one initiating it. It doesn't kill your pride and if it does think whether your pride is much more important that the friend that you wish that you can talk to again. However, if the other party doesn't respond to your signal, it's about time lay the friendship to rest. I'm pretty sure there are many people out there that will be worth your time and effort.
"Why take friendship so seriously? They are not even related by blood"
To many I suppose, family comes first before friends. I do that too. But usually having to share my problems to my mum and dad is not an easy task judging by the fact that we have a huge age gap. And I am an only child. So, I usually take my closest friends as my so called 'siblings' and I will often be in contact with them, going out and hanging around.
Having said that, I am the kind of person that literally open up my entire life.. Maybe not to the full extent if I am super comfortable with the person. However, I've been closing my door. I'm starting to close up because suddenly I don't feel safe anymore, a feeling that is rather hard to explain. So most of times, I will be trying my best to keep the spark alive but deep down inside it's a different story. Am I being fake? I guess not. If you think I am being fake around you then I guess you don't know me well enough. I'm still the happy go lucky guy but I won't open much anymore until I find it 100% safe with you. I can be talking crap and nonsense with you but if you genuinely know me long enough i have a different side.
I treasure my close friends. I am not interested with temporary friendships and some of them I am starting to distant away. It's fucking pathetic when I see someone trying so hard to make friends with almost everyone just to make it seem that he or she has some sort of authority and power but seriously you ain't gonna last cause all you are trying to do is to collect them and then chuck them aside when you don't need to them. No one is gonna give a fuck about you when you can't even give a fuck about them. They start talking to you doesn't imply that they are your friends and then because of that you backstab and talk back about the friends that have been there for you like seriously that's why people lie to you, that's why people talk shit about you and lastly that's why people left you cause you FAKE AS FUCK.
I have a good friend that it's pretty much a social butterfly and she has many friends and acquaintance but then why I know she's real? Cause she knows to prioritize who's closer to her and who's worth giving the extra effort to maintain the friendship. And that's why I'm proud to have her as my friend.
Lastly, I don't like it when there's tension between good friends but then the problem is addressed to a middle party. It will never solve the problem and worst of all the middle party will suffer. If there is a problem, have a confrontation between each other. It doesn't kill, probably exchange of anger and rage but after all of that everything would be back to normal. AND if you are the middle party it is best to let the other party know the situation because if you genuinely take them as your friends telling them is helping them, keeping it will just make things worse.
Choose your friends wisely. They will change your life and don't be a fake bitch.
:)
